well, i got good news and bad news at the same time today,.,., it's always nice to hear that one of your friends is so lucky to be able to get a scholarship darou? My friend. dewi, is sooo lucky today because she has just been told that she is the one being sent my university of indonesia to study in japan for a year.

urayamashii ne,,,,   


demo sa,.,., my other friend, ira, who has been striving to get the scholarship to study in japan since she was in high school, and who has always been rejected ever since, is now rejected again,.,., and i am so sad,.,, seeing her so crushed and devastated,., i am speechless, i dont know what to say,,,,

it's not that she is not qualified to receive the scholarship, she is smart, active, fun, dedicated, you name she has it! she has been trying harder than anybody else i know.,., but fate put such a sick game on her, and decide to prolong the road to her dreams,,,,

this is what i learn today,., everything is just a game, a game of fate to be precise,., it doesn't matter how much you tried or how much you want something to happen, it's fate who decides, not you.

ugh,.,, i hate it!!!! i want to go to japan,.,.,., somebody, please take me to japan.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,

fufufu,.,., after the long and tiring time waiting,., finally the heaven of yaoi is BACK!!!!!

NOW, NEW chapters of viewfinder is at last available,.,., YUHUU!!!!!! chapter 9 and 10,.,., ohmygod,.,., cant wait to read that,.,.,., asami,..,., takaba,.,., fufufufu,.,.,

YES!!!! finally, my thirst for YAOI is now cured,.,., (can i say that? that a thirst is cured? man, gotta work out my english more,.,.,)

hohoho,.,. lagi download dvd YA-Na-GI ni,.,.,

minna, wish me luck!!!!!

It's so late, and i dont get this LJ,.,  so what am i suppose to do first? create a posting?????

Oh well, the heck with it,., 


i've been out all day long, and i really hope that i could download that YA-NA-GI dvd which i could die for when i get home,., but this silly sendspace and megaupload kept telling me that their slots for Indonesia are so busy, hey, it's so late, who's using internet at this kind of hour (well, just exclude me,.,) and i've been dying to see my cute, CUTE, cUTe YANAGI,., 




did i mention that i hate sasuke? i downloaded the new naruto chapter (343), and voila, the story goes like any random fanfic you can possibly get from fanfiction.net or adultfanfiction.net. sasuke doesnt want his body to be taken from orochimaru, he just want the power,., bla bla bla,., boring!

i kinda hope his body is to be taken so that naruto will have to kill him no matter what, i practically want him dead, he's a bastard after all,., i swear i'll curse kishimoto masashi if sasuke then comes back to konoha, all high and mighty, after killing orochimaru,., and everybody is happy that he's back, except me,., 

i hate SASUKE! after all that he's done to naruto, how can a sane living being not hating him? why is he so powerful anyway, like all those harsh training naruto has been doing is like completely nothing compare to sasuke,., i hate the fact that naruto might never be able to surpass sasuke,., i mean, ow just look at naruto, i could even cry just seeing him,,. 

what am i talking about, i think i might have become very much obsessed with Naruto (and Yanagi, and Hyde, and YAOI), but that's not bad right? darou?????